I can’t believe I did that last night… I’ll tell you the gist of it. What I basically did was…
Tell another human being what I wanted, fought bloody hard for it and then went on different tangents, completely forgetting what I was trying to fight for haha. It doesn’t feel like me, or maybe it is, when I reveal something important to me. I honestly feel afraid of what they make take and what their response would be, praying that they would consider it even.
I said I wanted this, the person had (believe me it wasn’t much) a hard time wrapping their head around it. There’s nothing to even think hard about it! It made me think I’m not enough to sacrifice a little for. Like I would do it for myself (I do it already), but it feels appreciative when another does it for you. I feel like crap for even having to spell it out *shakes head*.
If I do actually tell you, I may get a laugh or a frown, it’s one of those situations. Everyone has their needs and wants, that has to be satisfied. I’m just like you. One the other hand, I finally bought new clothing items after a long hiatus of online shopping!